This Sucks

I’m just going to say it THIS SUCKS!! I am having a hard time getting back on track, I do well one day and then tank the next.  I know the tricks I know one meal at a time and forgiving myself.  It’s doing it that isn’t happening.  Motivation just isn’t there.  And I’m at a loss on how to get it back.  Being inactive has taken its toll and I’m only cleared to walk around on it, so I can’t do much and after a while it hurts.  When I was very active I viewed food as a form of fuel what I needed to get through a work out of prepare for a race.  Now I’m so frigging bored and depressed I’m using it as a form of self medication.

I’m so annoyed that I can’t seem to get a grip, I did this before I lost 108 pounds I felt amazing and still I can’t get a grip.  I’m also having a hard time forgiving myself and being nice to me.  I don’t like the way I look at all and am avoiding mirrors if at all possible.  I had a fire when I lost the weight last time, I wanted it so bad that I followed plan, now I can’t seem to find that fire and it’s frustrating me.

 

So what do I do now, give up??? not a chance, I’ll keep chugging and hope I can get this straightened out.  Especially before I go up another size!