Falling Out Of Love

I recently had a conversation over messanger with a friend.  She’s really been struggling with her routine.


I can identify, I’ve been there. one minute you’re chugging along and everything is perfect. you feel like you could live this clean eating healthy lifestyle forever. then BAM you’re completely derailed, you have to change your routine or worse come up with a whole new game plan. if you’ve ever been injured then you know how hard it is to go from active to sidelined then trying to find your way to active again. 
My advice to her with fake it until you make it. I have had to do this in the past, I have not felt like it, I have not wanted to do it, I have made every excuse. it needs to be part of your routine, it needs to be non-negotiable.  It doesn’t have to be complicated, it doesn’t have to be hard, you just need to find a way to move. start small, when I first started my journey I could barely do 10 minutes on the elliptical. but I did 10 minutes on the elliptical. you need to find something that you can do that is physical even if it’s not for a long period of time.

While you were faking it to make it, explore other options if what you were doing isn’t working anymore try and find something else. there are hundreds if not more workout videos, classes, activities.  Find one that makes you happy, even if you have to find one that doesn’t make you wanna claw your eyeballs out.  It takes time to make something a habit, they say it takes 21 days so find 21 days and do it.

Another way to motivate yourself to just do it, is to remind yourself why you’re doing it. I don’t do this just so I can have a “hot body” I do it for my mental health, for my family so I will be around for a long time to come, and for my own physical health. you might do it for mobility, or many other reasons but explore those find your reasons for being healthy. you need to often remind yourself why you’re on this journey because motivation comes and goes routines get screwed up and it’s not easy but it’s worth it.



Set Your Intentions


      The setting intentions for the week I believe is really important, I think that putting our intentions out to the world and not just keeping them secret is truly a path to success. When we keep our intention solely to ourselves we don’t really have faith that we’ll be able to achieve them. When we make our intentions known and take a leap of faith it’s much easier to stick to them because it’s not only known to us but we feel a sense of responsibility to the people we have told.
    So the question is how do we set our intentions.  How many times have you said I’ll start on a Monday but that Monday never comes. How many times have you been to afraid to tell people what you really want, but what would happen if we really did? What if we were honest about what we really wanted and what we were really willing to do in order to get it.
    So every week I try and set an intention for myself. It isn’t always weight related because I don’t feel like that’s achievable  every week.   So some weeks yes I set the intention that I’m going to eat cleanly and workout everyday, other weeks I set the intention that I’m going to be honest when it comes to my journal.
    So in order to set my intentions I start with a big goal. So if I were to set my intention for this week my big goal is to lose weight this week. But in order to make that big goal achievable I have to break it down into smaller goals. So the two things I would do to achieve my intention is to do piyo everyday and eat according to the 21 day fix plan. I think it’s important to set intentions there aren’t just surface there needs to be a why behind the intention. So why losing weight is so important to me right now is because my weight effects more than just my pants size. My weight is affecting my health both mentally and physically. I know that currently I am NOT at my best health and I also know how good I feel when I am at my best health.

     Everything in life starts with an intention whether that intention is well thought out and deliberate or subconscious some way we are setting intentions whether you realize it or not. So instead of subconsciously setting our intentions and allowing our subconscious to control and rule take a moment reflect on what you’re why is and set your intention around that.

Back in the Sadle

2014-10-03 13.44.40Finally feeling like I’m back in the head space where I can lose.  Summer is over and I’m ready to get back to who I like to be.  I’ve discovered pictures of my fit self motivate me way more than my heavy self so I’ve been looking at them a lot.

I passed my spinning instructor test and I’ve started teaching classes at work, which is amazing and I LOVE teaching.  It reminds me of leading meetings, sharing something I’m so passionate about.

I’m hoping to start sharing more often again, I was reading the topic of the week and buddy up made sense to me.  Hiding from my blog isn’t doing me any favors today felt awesome sharing my loss and I can’t wait to share my next win!!


April update and a May challenge

Hi there!

It’s been a while but it’s been all good. I am back on skates signed up for a half marathon and still eating and loving vegan.

As awesome as April has been the scale hasn’t moved at all. And I mean AT ALL. It’s driving me nuts, so I’ve decided I’m putting the scale away for the month of May. I’m going to weigh April 30 and take my measurements then it all goes away for the whole month. Is that scary?? Absolutely but it’s necessary. I’ve been getting on it every day and it’s not doing me any favors so I’m taking May to concentrate on good behaviors how my clothes fit. My goal this year, that I wanted for myself was to learn to at least accept my body but I would like to learn to love and appreciate it for everything it does.

The first step is getting over my obsession with the scale and those 20 pounds. Even now when someone says I look good or like I’ve lost I immediately say “oh I’ve only lost 13 pounds” or ” I still have 20 pounds to lose”

The big thing I have going for me is all the athletics I’m doing right now. I have a 5k in two weeks and I’m practicing roller derby 3 times a week. I know when I was most athletic was when I loved the way I felt and parts of my body, not as a whole but I could identify and parts and hold onto that.

I am going to start doing some cooking blogs again and show you all what I have been working on

Finding the why…

I’m struggling AGAIN. I’m just having a hard time staying focused and staying in course. I’m watching the Biggest Loser and Jillian is talking to her team about finding their why, why are they doing it? Why are they here? And once they find that why it makes it much easier being there, otherwise every day could feel like a punishment.
I’m struggling with this. When I first lost all the weight I had a fire in my belly and I’m having a hard time conjuring up that fire again. My why has changed and I need to find the new why.
Until I figure it out I’ll keep faking it till I make it. I’m tracking and focusing on that I started in at the gym and quickly everything fell to crap, I’m just having a hard time getting in the headspace to put all the pieces into place. So back to focusing on my food I know that this journey is 80% food, this battle is going to be won in the kitchen so that’s where I’m focusing.


I have a friend who is going through an injury right now, this is something I know a little bit about. I know the disappointment in your body, the anxiety about not being active, the fear that you’ll gain weight. They are all real feelings and if your going through it, it can be really overwhelming. How do you find an alternate to your current routine? Modifying moves is one way to do it. But that can be scary too. Being the only one in the class to being doing something different or not feeling like you are giving it your all. And the alternative to try something completely new. Then there is the last resort not doing anything at all. Which is the route I took with my ankle break. I don’t recommend this especially if you aren’t a naturally active person. Starting an active lifestyle isn’t easy and restarting it is just as hard if not harder. Because you know what you need to do and how to do it but the mental hurdle can be a tough one to get over. Constantly comparing yourself to where you were and not accepting yourself for your current situation. In the end we need to know that all we can do is out best at this current moment and time. I can’t compare myself to the girl who ran a half marathon because she isn’t exactly who I am today. Someday I want to run another half marathon but today I want to accept that the best I can do is walk mile or two.

Salmon burger and asparagus



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